Haizz

After a very long break, I’m back here once again to blog something…and this blog I predict, shall be the longest blog I ever written. At the moment, the most suitable word I can think of to describe my feeling now is “Haiz…” or maybe “Haiz” shouldn’t be consider an English word then it shall be “Sigh..”


Today is a bad day for me, within a day I’ve received quite a few bad news. My OIC had put me under her subordinate (who is one of e leaders in my ELiTeS project team) to be in charge of me. This nice lady gave me hope – she wanted me to call up the Human Resource department to ask if I’m entitled to 2 days break in replacement to the 2 public holidays that falls on Saturdays if the answer is a yes then she’ll give me 2 days off….so I called up the HR during my lunch break…and I’ve expected the answer to be a “Yes” BUT the answer turn out to be a disappointing “No”..sadly I messaged my dear Shanny bout the bad news, I’ve thought of getting the 2 days off on the same day as Shan’s leaves so I can get to go out and spend time with her..after that went to e cafe trine to have my lonesome lunch of Ipoh “hor fan”.


Soon after my lunch I went back to the office or rather room, though I can take about an hour break but there’s simply nowhere I can hang out at traffic police especially when I’m alone. Spent a few peaceful hours until my OIC called..she wanted me to go CDC (comfort driving school) at Kampung Ubi on Monday to do monitoring on our system ALONE for the whole day..SUX am I so fated to be alone?..ALONE to face an unfamiliar environment…I can picture myself on Monday, dangling around the place not knowing where to stand or sit


“….So do u understand the objectives? I’ll repeat…I want you to be very clear about our objectives..This is important I need you to get all these very clear because if we don’t get to track out the problems and when these problems get to the heads/directors we’re in for a big trouble…….” She sounded so stern, serious and stress…I got so pressurize from her words because she uses so many strong words.


Thought tat tonite’s treat from my aunt will cheer me up abit but soon after I hang up the call from my OIC…received an sms from my aunt saying tonight dinner is cancelled..I’ve look forward to the meal tonight but it’s all dashed..haiz..replied back to my aunt and soon she called me…told me some bad news...one of it is that my maternal grandmother’s cousin(her “tang jie”) passed away this morning at 6...the day before, my GM’s cousin have requested to see my GM for the last time, and my GM had initially decide to pay her a visit the next morning, but she din manage to hold on…L..sound so much like my situation some years ago when my paternal grandmother passed away. She had also hope to see me for the last time, and I’ve decided to pay her a visit e next day because I’m busy with my school works so I couldn’t make it on tat day..sadly, she left us in the morning, I paid her a visit but what I saw is her lifeless body..I’m extremely regretful and sad but I’m consoled to see the peaceful look from her face….


-Moral of the story-
Treasure your love ones and love them with all your might because u’ll never be 100% certain that there’s a tml.


Ronan Keating If Tomorrow Never Comes


Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last


If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes


-updated by ting-